Trickster at play: an inquiry into transgression in a colonised world

This is an inquiry about transgression of colonial discourse.
My intimate encounter with the ongoing ecological destruction of the world fills me with grief and shapes my perspective. This grief is made invisible in our lives and business through hegemonic discourses that marginalises ecological integrity and sustainability. As a sustainability practitioner of an apparel manufacturing company, I occupy a discursively constructed margin. How do I bring about meaningful change that preserves the key life sustaining processes that honour earth as a living system within such a context? I claim resistance and transgression, play critical and strategic roles in the praxis of those who occupy such colonised spaces and attempting to transform the same.
I explore transgression as a mode of practice that opens windows of opportunity to broaden the discursive boundaries to enable new modes of action and relationships. I explore how transgression becomes performative; and in my praxis exists in a wider spectrum of activities including collaboration, coalition building, advocacy and expertise, that gives it a unique sense of power and agency. I explore trickster as an embodied and performative form of transgression, and locate it within the larger body of practices and explore her influence in shifting discourse.
I describe a complex practice that employs these methods and others to challenge the normalizing effects of power and attempt to build a more sustainable world through action and shifting of discourse. It is also a risky and unsafe territory where self-care has little meaning. I look beyond traditional and sanitised accounts of change, to narrate a deeply conflicted,
contradictory, political and complex account of a change agent, as an offer for resonance.
I explore historical, cultural and colonial constructs that sit at the foundation of the research process, specifically action research. Moving beyond deconstruction of method, I offer a different way to approach method in action research, that would support radical activism based out of a performative mode. I also explore what it is to be writing from outside to an academy with its Eurocentric structures.